Dirge for Connor

I was watching the local TV news last week and saw a very sad story about a young lad who developed a tumor in his cerebral cortex.  He was a very active, normal 7 year old,  who played baseball and did everything a kid that age does. The next thing you know, the kid had a tumor diagnosed and his life was devastated.  Apparently, this is a rare type of tumor and regular cancer treatments wouldn't work.  He became unable to walk, speak or even feed himself.  What a dreadful thing to happen to a young vibrant child.  How cruel can life be.  A young innocent child has to suffer like this and have his future viciously taken away.

                                                                     Connor

                                                             A Future Baseball Star

I was really touched by this story because I feel there is nothing worse in this life than having an innocent child's life destroyed by disease.  I don't have much but I decided to give a small donation to his go fund me page.  There was a small bit of hope.  His parents researched and found an experimental treatment in the UK.  They needed to raise $250,000 to travel to a hospital and for the treatment.  I received updates and yesterday I saw they had raised the money.  I don't have much faith in people but this does show there are actually some good folks out there.  They were planning on going next week to get the treatment for Connor.

As days go, today was a decent one.  I got home from work, worked out and sat down at my computer for my small bit of peace and relief from this mad world.  I saw an update in my email about Connor.  I opened it and my world just stopped.  Time became meaningless.  My mind went blank.  Something or someone was clutching at my throat.  Connor had died earlier today.  Why? Why did he have to die now?  He had been through a living hell for a year.  Couldn't he have lived another week, maybe this treatment would have worked and given him a chance at life. Of course he is in a better place.  No child should ever have to suffer like that. I can't imagine what his family has gone through.  The old adage life isn't fair doesn't even apply here.  Life sucks, life isn't right. That kid never had a chance.  Morrissey said it best, "Life Is A Pigsty".  Tomorrow the sun will come up and the rhythms of life will go on.  It never changes and we here eventually will all take our turn, turning into dust.

                                                                      Into Dust