A Millionaire

This past Friday afternoon, I was resting before I went to play tennis and this simple thought popped in my head.  I feel I am a millionaire.  I certainly don't have a million dollars or anywhere close.  I have enough money to live and that's fine.  I have certain intangible things that do make me a millionaire.

Number one is health.  How much is your health worth?  Its priceless!  I would rather be healthy and have my loved ones healthy than a million dollars any day.  I have had some injuries playing sports but nothing that I couldn't overcome.  I can play tennis, ice hockey, run, ride bike and exercise on my free will.  Those things to me are way more important than any amount of money.

Number two, I have my mind.  Some may say my thinking is warped but I do and will always think for myself.  I never have subscribed to group think and never will.  If that makes me an outsider, then so be it.  I make my own choices and do what I feel is correct through my thought processes.  As it seems more and more folks think less, I believe people need to think and analyze more and not follow whats force fed to them.  I'd rather think for myself than have a boatload of money.

Other than work, I have free will.  I can pretty much go where I want, whenever I want.  I love freedom and independence.  I never want to be tied down and told what I have to do.  The freedom to live as I want makes me wealthy not dollars in a bank account.

The other thing I love and will always have is music.  I can't play a note or sing but music is an integral part of my life.  There always seems to be a song playing in my head even if I don't have a cd playing.  Music soothes me on a bad day.  It makes me feel triumphant on a good day.  There are so many songs that I can identify as the soundtrack of my life.  If I didn't have music I would be poor.  Music makes me whole and no amount of money could ever change that.

In conclusion, despite the ups and downs, the trials and tribulations of life, I have decided the intangibles are so much more important than material wealth.  Health, sports, mind, freedom, independence, music are way more valuable to me than money.  So it is said, so it shall be written. I know I'm a millionaire and its All In My Mind.

Staircase at The University

This song has so much meaning for me.  The pressure of going to College and getting good grades.  I was very lucky in that my parents paid for my college education.  It is a gift I treasure, one caveat though is the pressure my Dad put on me to make good grades.  As Morrissey sings "If you don't get three As," her sweet daddy said
You're no child of mine and as far as I'm concerned, you're dead.

I can certainly relate to that sentiment.  It was told to me in no uncertain terms, I would get no lower than a B with several A's to go along or there would be consequences.  Naturally it meant I had to bust my ass and study with not so much fun.  The pressure I felt was intense and I didn't enjoy college as much as I should have.  I did make good grades, never got lower than a B.  My GPA was decent, 3.63 out of 4.  Graduated with High Honors.  Whoop ti do.  Was it worth it?  Not really.  I wish I had gone out and had more fun and experiences.  I do feel college is good for a person.  It matures you and gives one a perspective on how to look at things and analyze them.  I do remember a time when I was sure I was going to get a C in a course and like the girl in the song, I was ready to throw myself down the staircase and end it.  Some how I pulled a B and tragedy was averted.  Funny how life turns out, isn't it?

Just Say NO!!

                                      To The Big Toe

Well wouldn't ya know, I don't have a broken big toe.  The first doctor I went to misread the X-Ray.

I went to get a second opinion cause I had very little pain and thought this damn toe wasn't broken.  

The second doctor confirmed my feelings the toe wasn't broken and I could resume my dull, unimportant life.   So I was actually able to play 5 sets of tennis last nite.  It was exhilarating, the joy and relief were overwhelming,  Hallelujah!!

I have learned a valuable lesson from all of the BS I went though the past week.  Number 1 is don't trust any doctor and believe in yourself and your own intuition first.  Number 2 is be thankful for people who really do care about you.  As I muddle my way through life I feel I'm learning to fly but unfortunately, I don't have wings.

Big Toe

On a day I should be celebrating the release of Morrissey's World Peace is None of Your Business, I can't because I broke the Big Toe on my left foot.  No tennis, running etc for who knows how long.  Its a Wonderful Life.  Thank You Very Much.

A torn MCL in my knee, now a broken toe, who knows what's next?

Morrissey, you are so right, trouble does love me, walks beside me, to chide me, not to guide me.

Feel

                                                                         Feel

When one loses compassion and feelings for their fellow man, they may as well be dead.  That's how I feel.  If that ever happens to me, I deserve to be in a box of pine.

There was a 16 year old girl murdered not far from here.  Her body was found in a landfill.   She was stabbed to death by a boy in her apartment complex.  A horrid crime for one so young.  In addition, which makes this crime so vile, is she had been raped from the age of 8 by a stepfather.  He had been jailed and this young lady was starting her life over.  From all accounts she had developed into a very pleasant and caring person despite what had been done to her.  She had moved on from a vile time in her life only to be brutally murdered.  I just ask.   Does one person deserve this?  Was anyone on her side?  How can God allow this to happen to one of his creatures?  Does anyone know where the love of God goes?  This poor girl certainly never had a chance.  Anyone who complains about the bad in their life, should consider this girl's life before they complain.

                                                                 God rest her soul.

Kick 'em When They're up

                             Kick 'em When They're down

                                                        People love it when you lose.
                                          You don't really need to find out what's going on.
                                         Just leave well enough alone, eat your dirty laundry.
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I don't know who the girl with the loneliest eyes could be.  I do know who the guy with the loneliest eyes is.  I see them every morning in the mirror .....desolate.....barren.....forsaken.....melancholy.....wistful.....forlorn.....pensive.....crestfallen.

                                                And I'm never coming back, oh no, oh no.