I'm feeling slightly blue today. The pressure some days is worse than others. Emptiness rules supreme in my soul. Do I even have a soul? The days run together, each one seemingly the same as the prior. Tomorrow is April fools day. I feel I may be the biggest fool of all, searching for meaning in life, where the almighty dollar is King. I'm an anachronism. I belong somewhere else, another time or another dimension. There is no way out of here, this prison, this trap. As each day passes, a small piece of me dies, knowing I have lost another day to find my way. Time's tide is smothering me slowly. The worst part is the knowledge that there is nothing I can do about it. My fate, it awaits me. It haunts me and taunts me. The clock on the wall is truly making fun of us all. As this day ends like so many before, I feel hollow and wonder what is the point of this existence? What have I accomplished? Just living another day in a lethargic march to the void. Cross off another box on the calendar. Place another slash in the count to finality. The blessed comfort of sleep will be welcomed tonight. No one can damage or hurt me in sleep. The solitary peace of unconsciousness is a haven where I will be safe temporarily till the misery of morning.
Overlord was the code name for the operation commonly known as D-Day, in which the Allies attacked the Nazi held beaches in Normandy, France on June 6, 1944. This attack would allow the Allies to gain a foothold in Europe and eventually defeat the Nazi's.
The Overlord I am referencing is a band. They have a song I just recently discovered, which is a tribute to Morrissey, called "I Want To Die With You, Morrissey". It is a very pleasant tune, the words are somewhat hard to discern but the video is very good. Morrissey and his music touches so many people in countless ways. He is an icon and we are blessed to be able to enjoy his words, music, intelligence and his amazing concerts.
Overlord "I Want To Die With You, Morrissey
I WANT TO DIE WITH YOU, MORRISSEY
In school halls, by club walls From Rome to East L.A. Our patron saint of suffering sings And another life is saved
And who's the one Whose words have earned This charming Mancunian deity His army of the solitary's mortal loyalties?
I want to die with you, Morrissey! I want to feel how you feel even one last time You let your life be mine So I'll be next in line I want to die with you, Morrissey! I want to show you when you go I'll be by your side Who will confirm our doubts When your light goes out? I want to die with you, Morrissey!
The boulder rolls over Our hero once more But he chases it slower Than he did before
He says: Dear friends, As much as I've enjoyed Being destroyed for your anthems You'll have to make sense of this senselessness By your lonesome
But I want to die with you, Morrissey! I want to feel how you feel just one last time Your every word rings true I've always followed you I want to die with you, Morrissey! I won't lose who speaks truth to the powerless One minute without you I couldn't say yes to I want to die with you, Morrissey!
Be still my heart Should you depart! I'd die without you I'd die without you So can I die with you?
I want to die with you, Morrissey! I want to feel how you feel in your final hours You let my life be mine So I'll be next in line I want to die with you, Morrissey! I want to share the fear that dare not speak its name For all you've pulled me through Can't I comfort you? I want to die with you, Morrissey! I want to die with you, Morrissey! I want to die with you, Morrissey!
For some reason, the band name of Overlord caused me to think of the song "Space Lord" by Monster Magnet. I have no clue why? I guess I'm just an odd guy. And here I sit in my odditorium, thinking and writing my futile, bizarre thoughts.
Space Lord
Our Moz is continuing his wonderful tour of the UK. He has played shows in Nottingham, Bournemouth, Cardiff (Wales). From all I've read and the videos I've watched, Mozza looks and sounds spectacular. The crowds are great and very hyped to be in the presence of Our Moz.
Speedway!!!!!
Unfortunately I won't be able to see Morrissey, because he is touring the UK and I'm in the USA! I've got my fingers crossed he will come to Pittsburgh this summer. You know, if I were a seagull I could get to the UK. Hmmmmm, oh never mind, I'd probably fly around till someone would shoot me down.
I read Morrissey would like this song played when he is being cremated, after he dies. I hope this will not happen for a long. long, long time. We want Our Moz around for many more years. The world would be a much colder and depressing place without his presence.
It also got me thinking what I would like played as I am cremated. Silence would actually be good. Just the crackling of the flames burning my flesh, muscle and bone. But if I was forced to pick a song to play as my body became a funeral pyre, I think it would be "(I'm) The End Of The Family Line." Quite an appropriate send off for one who will, through no fault of his own, terminate this branch of the family tree. Disappointment seems to be what I excel best at.
After a several month break, Our Moz has returned to the stage in Groningen Netherlands. I'm sure it was a bombastic affair, as are all Mozza concerts. So glad to see him back and looking fabulous. It is always a stimulating time when Morrissey is on tour. Seeing the fantastic pictures and watching the spectacular videos, especially when one can't be there live. Welcome back and Bravo Mozza!!!
Farewell Leonard Nimoy and may you rest in peace. Of course I didn't know you, from all accounts you were a wonderful person. The world, your friends and family will sorely miss you. You achieved fame for playing Mr. Spock on Star Trek. You were much more than just one character. You were an accomplished actor, writer, scholar and philanthropist. Your work inspired generations.
I want to personally thank you, for you gave me hope. When I was a young child of roughly 12, I saw my first rerun of Star Trek. I would watch the show when I came home from school each day. I was instantly hooked. Space, the final frontier, the voyages of the Star ship Enterprise. I could lose myself in the exciting fantasy of the future to escape the dreadful present. I was browbeaten both at school and home. It was a painful time I would very much like to forget. There were nights I would lie in bed crying, praying that the Star ship Enterprise would beam me aboard, away from my woeful existence on earth to the better world of the future. Needless to say that couldn't and didn't happen. There was one character on Star Trek that I worshiped, and that was Spock. He could handle any situation with his logic, inner strength and not letting his emotions show. I tried to emulate Mr. Spock in my life by not letting the taunts, insults or bullying destroy what was inside of me. I didn't want to give those people the satisfaction of knowing the hurt they caused. So, thank you Leonard Nimoy, for your portrayal of Spock helped a young kid through some awful times and gave me hope that there was a better world out there, than my small niche. I still feel the lessons of using logic and inner strength are applicable into adulthood. You will always hold a special place in my heart. Good bye.
What were the main influences of your school years? Were they literary or political or personal? Was it Calvinism?
There was a Miss Jean Brodie in her prime.
Anais Nin, the author. Who the hell is she? She is an author who was hailed as one of the finest writers of female erotica. She was friends and spent time with Henry Miller, John Steinbeck, Gore Vidal, James Agee etc. Sounds like a very interesting lady. Her book "A Spy In The House Of Love" inspired the band, The House of Love.
I say we've got nothing to lose, so "Let's drink to the spirit of Rome"
