Yes, a Morrissey song and lyrics saved my life some years ago. "How Soon is Now" helped to stop me from doing something stupid and for that I am eternally grateful to Morrissey. What happened is far too complicated and painful to explain and write about now. Someday I will. His songs helped me through many a troubled time. When I had nobody to talk to and no one who cared. I could listen to Morrissey and I felt comforted. There was someone out there who knew what I was going through. The reason I am writing this is that I saw on True to you a post from Morrissey about seeing Kirk Douglas the other day while on a stroll. Apparently Douglas is someone Morrissey admires. He wrote about deciding whether to approach him and in the end he didn't. This got me to thinking. What would I do if I saw Morrissey out in public. Would I approach him or would decide to leave him alone?
I admire Morrissey for many reasons, his music has been the soundtrack of my life. He and his music are intelligent, he is independent, he has integrity and of course most of all his music did save me. So the question is what would I do if I saw him? I honestly don't know. I am very shy around strangers and basically never talk to anyone I don't know. Is Morrissey really a stranger? It seems like I know him through his lyrics. I believe he is a very complex individual, there is more to him than just his lyrics and stage persona. So no, I don't really know him. I have seen clips of him meeting fans, signing autographs and posing for pictures. He is always very gracious and is very accommodating. I think it would get old to be constantly bothered by fans and such. So in that sense my instinct would be to not interrupt him and let him have his privacy.
In my heart though I want to thank him in person for writing such beautiful songs and for basically helping to save my life. Now how would I approach Morrissey? I cant imagine just walking up to him and saying "Hi Morrissey". It seems so tacky for someone of Morrissey's stature. I was thinking I could memorize a witty Oscar Wilde quote and say Hello with the quote. Well that would be real unoriginal. I'm sure Morrissey would think, get me away from this loser. So that idea is out the window. How do you approach someone you admire when you feel you cant match up with his intelligence, wit and charm? How could I tell Morrissey the story of how his song saved my life, what his music has meant to me and thank him in a 1 minute chance encounter on a street?
The answer is I don't think I would approach Morrissey if I saw him. I admire him beyond what words I could write or say to him. He has fans bother him all the time and I think he deserves some privacy and to enjoy his stroll without being interrupted. He knows how much his fans love him and how much his music has affected peoples lives. I would be disappointed in not meeting him but satisfied I got to see him and know I didn't get in the way of his thoughts and enjoyment of doing what he was doing. Well this was all hypothetical, its never gonna happen and that's ok. I still wish I could thank him. Its something that will always be in the back of my mind, wishing I could meet him but knowing I never will. Its part of life. There are a thousand things in life you can have and a million things you can't have.
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